I'm

I'm tired
I'm upset
I'm losing hope
I'm straying  from those closest to me.

I'm angry at you
I'm angry at me
I'm angry that, well, it just wasn't meant to be.
I'm smiling, because, that what mom says to do
I'm still losing hope when thinking about you.

I'm fighting myself
I'm fighting these feelings
I'm fighting all of this gravity pushing down me

I'm feeling the weight and all of its pressure
I'm still standing though, smiling
I'm wishing we could go back to the past, when it was all smiles and laughter
I'm slowly realizing that we cant.

I'm almost out of words to say, so just listen now if you weren't already


I'm trying and trying, but you just keep lying!
I'm watching, observing, constantly learning.
That our worlds are simply, spinning apart.